The Rabbit's Hole

 today, i was supposed to go to liyana's house.. i want to spend some time with her before she went to collage this 27/4. yeah.. this wednesday( i know2.. i spent much a lot of time with her already if it wold to be compared with the time i spent with my other friends). but something happened and the plan got cancelled.(due to some problem).. then  i got some minor fight with my mom bout it. cause she claimed to be busy on other days.. at this kind of time i just wish that that L licence could be of some use. i wish i could go there by myself but my mom n dad won't let me! they won't let me ride the bike.. i'm such a nuisance to everybody! i hate myself!
i couldn't even accept the fact that my friends would all to collage soon... i'm so childish... i was heartbroken to separate with all my friends. liyana would be gone by this 'rabu' then everybody is going to be the same soon.. michi would go to overseas if she got her biasiswa! i love all my friends and i don't want them to go! i'm so selfish right?! sigh...

p/s: do remember that my emotions is unstable when i wrote this.