The Rabbit's Hole

 today, i was supposed to go to liyana's house.. i want to spend some time with her before she went to collage this 27/4. yeah.. this wednesday( i know2.. i spent much a lot of time with her already if it wold to be compared with the time i spent with my other friends). but something happened and the plan got cancelled.(due to some problem).. then  i got some minor fight with my mom bout it. cause she claimed to be busy on other days.. at this kind of time i just wish that that L licence could be of some use. i wish i could go there by myself but my mom n dad won't let me! they won't let me ride the bike.. i'm such a nuisance to everybody! i hate myself!
i couldn't even accept the fact that my friends would all to collage soon... i'm so childish... i was heartbroken to separate with all my friends. liyana would be gone by this 'rabu' then everybody is going to be the same soon.. michi would go to overseas if she got her biasiswa! i love all my friends and i don't want them to go! i'm so selfish right?! sigh...

p/s: do remember that my emotions is unstable when i wrote this.

      I opened my eyes slowly and i saw this pretty lady sitting infront of me. Shouldn't I be dead? Is this suppose to be heaven? and what the hell is this weird taste i had inside my mouth?. I blinked and look at that pretty lady again. there were some red stain on her smooth fair neck. when i was about to opened my mouth to ask all of those questions she speak up.
' welcome to the house of vampires' .she said it with a beautiful smile carved on her flawless pretty face.
' vampires?! what the hell.... shouldn't i be dead? the car accident!'
she looked at me and carved that flawless smile again.
' yes indeed. you are dead'. she said.' you died then undied to become a vampire.well, not actually. you're a vampire fledgling to be more exact and you're attending this school to complete your transformation into an adult vampire'
speechless. i just looked at her for more answers.
' you still remember well how you died right? and the pain you suffered when you died. well everyone remembers it even adult vampires. it takes hundred of years you know to forget that. i still remember well too, on how i died'
okay, now i'm lost
'i'll explain more but first take a look at you're back'
i walked toward the mirror nearby and checked my back. then i saw this moon shaped mark on my back. weird. it was never there before.
'that mark is the proof that you're a vampire'. she said while still sitting on that bed.
'please explain more'. i said while checking my mark.
'of course! anything for my beloved student.'she exclaimed.
'student?'. i raised an eyebrow.
she smiled.'of course i am. couldn't you guess it right form the start?'
Hell yeah! she looked so hot not to mention that she looked just a few years older than me!
she laughed. it was amazing on how gorgeous she looked with her long red curls bouncing around her face and her moss green eyes gleams.
'why must all boys act like you did just now?. She laughed again.' i never got tired of that expressions. Did u chose your name already?'
I just stare at her, Puzzled.
'jezz... i'm tired of explaining the same thing all over and over again every single time a new student arrived'
i raised my eyebrows again.
'here, at the house of vampires you can choose a new name as a sign of starting a new life as a vampire. but you also could choose to stay with your old name if you wish too'.
i remained silent to think about it.
'Dimitri. Dimitri Harman' i said to her.
' staying with your real family name eh?'

- End of chapter 1 part 1.

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heya peeps!~... today i'm going to just express on how i felt since 'someone' never really understands me though she's been friends with me for almost 4 years! YEAH! suck it up that someone!(sapa2 yg terasa amik!!)
p/s:sorry bout that..it's time for me to expose the truth to everyone on how i felt.. everyone needs to take some time to be a bitch rite? we're not that goody good angel..

first of all i NEVER hate anyone! yeah that's the truth even if that person hate's me!( unless she/he is not my friends or someone i love and she/he really hurt me in a really terrible way).. so if anyone ever thought that i hate him/her than that's BULLSHIT!!!

second, if that's person is my friend i'll never hold any grude toward her/him! i'm simply forgive him/her after what they'd done to me.. though it might takes some times for me to do so... but i'll forgave them for sure!

third, i hate when people talks behind my backs!! i rather wants my friend to be honest with me  eventhough the truth might hurt me!! please!! just please!!

4. if someone actually hates me.. please at least give me a reason! that's all i ask..

5. i loves my friend like i love my own sister so hurt her n i'll kill u! n it happens to all of my friends.. EACH AND EVERYONE OF THEM.  i just happen to treat them differentlly cause each one of them have different attitude..

6. i hope that someone will read it cause she didn't even follow my blog though she follow every single friend's blog that she have.. EXCEPT OF ME!!! so yeah!! i'm hurt!!! any problem with it?!!!

did the tittle caught ur eyes?.. lol...hey guys.. i just realised that my blogs updates are approximately around 2 to 3 posts in a month so i thought that why don't i updates more frequently while i still have loads of time to waste...  but the big problem is i don't really have anything to post on...  so... what should i post?hm....
i'm thinking bout posting my not-so-pretty artwork here but the absence of scanner stopped me from doing it... i just decided i'll tell ur the whole story on how i got stalked on the first place and what happen next.. but since it happened long ago it won't be that detailed la...


okay.. here it goes... i remember that it happen when i was 15.. it was the year which we have to sit for pmr for crying out loud! it happen when i went to the cc near my house... for what?! (on9 la)... well... at that time the pc at my home was broken beyond repair dh so terpaksalah pegi cc.. well.. it should be no harm since it is near my home.. ask liyana? it was close rite?... back to the story, since nothing bad ever happen i always went there like one a week or so.. not untill on day a freaky guy suddenly sat right next to me! seriously! it was super creepy! he sat right next to me like he had know me forever... and talked to me.. of course i was hell scared but i couldn't bare to ignore him.. i'm such a nice person u know?... so just layan je la... but deep inside i was like "somebody please help me! hitsugaya!!"( masa tu tgh gila kt hitsugaya toushirou from bleach..skang ni pun masih suka.. hahaha).. i didn't realised that he saw my name when i was signing up for something that i couldn't remember what untill he called me by my name(freaky!) ... i was really scared by that time!... i quickly stopped doing whatever i was doing that time and said nicely to him that i want to go home.. he then wants me to promised him to see him again at that place tomorrow.. i was really freaked out but since i am such a good actress i came up with an excuse using a very convincing face... but then he offered to walked me home?!!! WTF???!!!! i refused it(nicely la cause again.. i'm a very nice person.. n who know what the hell he might do to me if i rejected his offer rudely, he's a psicopath afterall).. but he insisted and walked beside me untill i got home! SHIT!!!( now he knows my home... super shit!).. eversince that he'll come to my house looking for me every single day!!!!! i was so damn scared that i didn't even dare to go outside... sometimes he'll be looking for me somewhre else.. not too mention he actually came to my house at raya!! super creepy rite? it happens for month n month( i think those previouse post bout him stalking me for just 3 month was bullshit! i was much longer when i think bout it!)... i was so depressed u know?... at last i couldn't stand it anymore so i told him to stay away cause i already have a boyfriend n he'll kill him if he dare to come near me again( it was a lie of course cause i never had a bf)... i worked for a couple of days but then he came back looking for me again... even my big sister was freaked out! shit! she was more freaked out than i was!... but somehow he stopped stalking me.. after a long time torturing me la... sigh,, i dunno what or why.. but i was glad it was over...

i looooves D'myo's art so much! who's D'myo?... oh.. she's( i think she la) a korean doujinshi... here's some of her artwork..


                                              it's an Angel Beats doujinshi.... so cute!


                                           kagamine rin and len... Aw~~<3


                                cute hatsune miku!

megurine luka from vocaloid

black rock shooter and hatsune miku

sheryll from macross frontier..

so beautiful.... i absolutely adores her artwork

hehehe... so who said that a girl can't draw eechi and hentai?

see?.. cute right?

oh.... by the way... what do u think bout my blog's new name?....